It's been a while! I've been wanting to post something yet I haven't had something exciting or significant to write about. Like usual, my fingers start to type a lot just right after midnight. I'm starting to think I might be possessed every midnight with an actual ghost-writer (no pun intended). I'm really supposed to be writing my assignment right now but this is more important at the moment!!!

Anyways, what have I been doing for the last couple of weeks? Since university term has started, yes, I'm quite busy with upcoming assignments and lectures. Especially since there are some courses that tend to give me quite a homework almost every week (you know who you are). I haven't even baked a lot lately since I have no time :( 

So hear me out: a part of me wants to talk about the movie Salo (or 120 Days of Sodom) but I'm afraid I might get depressed after thinking about that movie again. Another part of me wants to write about other things but I can't decide what things to write. So I'll just talk about Salo for a bit. Pray I'll be able to sleep well tonight.

As you may know, I'm a Saw aficionado, I literally live by his words. Well not by killing and torturing people, but more by respecting every second in my life. Despite everybody else's remarks for this particular obsession of mine (yes, I did watch Saw 1-7 marathon with my housemates, we could've done it in one day but because we had to get some food, it was just not possible, so we did it in 2 days), I love this movie. I don't care about the blood and violence, the movie has its own philosophy, and I love it. One day, one of my friends came along to my house and started talking about this movie Salo, which I've never heard of. He said it was one of the scariest movies ever made. It is a story about Fascist leaders in Salo (it's a town in Italy), who had nothing else to do and decided to take 9 attractive boys and 9 beautiful girls and then torture them physically, mentally, sexually, and psychologically. My sensation-seeking instincts excitedly told me to watch it, of course. Challenge accepted. 

Last Wednesday, I went to my friend's house to watch Salo on blu-ray. After watching Salo, I was speechless. I couldn't figure out the philosophy of that movie. Brilliant. Different from Saw, which made me empathise Jigsaw / John Kramer because I understand his motives, I just couldn't grip this one. Salo was just an extremely depressing movie, making you lose faith in humanity. Then I realised, there ARE some people who do things like that - torturing people for FUN, as in, because they have nothing else to do. Judging the movie from a cinematographic point of view (not that I'm an expert or anything), it was okay. Not so graphic until the last scenes of the movie. Rather brilliant really, to think that Salo was made in 1975, where movie editing wasn't exactly near Transformers movies or anything. It was just very simple, with alright acting. 

The only thing that bugged me terribly was the IDEA of the story. Seriously, how could ANYONE make a movie so depressing? Without depressing music background, or depressed people crying under the rain (such Hollywood cliche). The songs are beautiful actually, the type of songs you might hear in a cafe. The settings aren't dark and gloomy, either, it was bright and colourful. You just can't see the depression, you FEEL it. Which, in my opinion, was way worse. I was so depressed after watching that movie, it took me 5 days to actually get a grip and try to write it down. Like my friend said, if he watches this movie one more time, he'll hate everyone in the world. I felt that same feeling. I've never felt so depressed by watching a movie. 

To anyone who is a sensation seeker like me, or just enjoy watching sick movies like me, you might want to watch this ONCE. More than once and I can just tell how sick you are. This is a movie that I'm glad I've watched (instead of just being curious about it, right?), but I swear I'll never watch again ever in my life. I don't want to recommend this to anyone, though. You know the consequences. 

Now I just want to go to sleep, because my parents are coming tomorrow! :D Surprising? I know, I was surprised too. It was a very sudden trip, indeed. They'll be staying for a week though so I don't really mind. Alrighty, have a good night (or...morning if I have to say), people! 

So again, a little random fact about me : I LOVE EVERYTHING EPIC. Yes I do. Even my utmost favourite band in history is EPICA (they're incredibly awesome, but rather underrated. Please check them out! The vocalist, Simone Simons, is probably the most beautiful woman in the whole world. And they write the most epic songs with the most epic lyrics about life and justice. So much better than those mainstream pop crap). So you can see, ever since I was very young, I've always been a huge fan of the fantasy genre and this applies to books, movies, games, etc. In my previous post I mentioned that I've always been a rocker, but now that I'm growing up, another music genre that I grew to love is epic music. If you've ever noticed the background songs in trailers for movies (the epic ones, my favourite ones are from Pirates of the Caribbean, Lord of the Rings, and Inception) or even games (like Skyrim and Lineage II), now that's the kind of music I've been in love lately. These songs mostly are performed by the whole orchestra with full choir, sometimes singing in languages I don't even know - but that's the most fun part of it. 

Anyways, since I love everything EPIC, my dreams tend to be epic as well. I once dreamed that the purgatory is actually a "test" to see if you're good enough to escape hell. If you can manage to escape then you'll be sent to heaven, but if you can't, then you're stuck in hell. I had to fight incredibly huge monsters (the only one I could remember was a mix between a bear and a large dog, it was standing on its two feet but with a face shaped like a dog, and as big as a bear), had to outsmart the devil's minions who cleverly made a sort of genocide (making everyone trapped in hell, but me), and lots of other things unimaginable. The last thing I remember before I woke up was facing the devil himself. He said that I have accomplished all the tests, and I shall be free from the grips of hell forever. When I woke up I actually felt really good! 

Now, that dream was so old, let's talk about a dream that's more recent. It just occurred last night. So this dream was a mix between Harry Potter, Lord of the Rings, and Alice in Wonderland. Epic, I know. Like in the beginning of Lord of the Rings, I had to meet several other people and together we formed a sort of fellowship in a mission to seek noble things that could help with justice and world peace. I know this sounds weird already, but trust me, it's going to get even better. I still can't remember who these people were, and I'm certain that I've never seen them before, not in real life, not in movies as well. Anyways, there were like 5 of us including me - there was another girl and 3 guys. Together, we had to travel using this long necklace made of chains (hint: Hermione's time-turner, anyone?) that could teleport us to this other dimension to find the lost item.